Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Messy writing

I redesigned my blog months ago, I don't even know how long it has been.

I have a special page reserved for Kelly and it still sits empty.   I want to write something that is perfect,  and
I know that I can never make it perfect so I do nothing and yet I ache to write about her.  Honor who she is to me.

I have a growing collection of unpublished drafts in my folder.  I write and I don't like what I wrote so they
remain unpublished.

I want to write and then I  find the reasons not to write.  I can't write.  I have writer's block.  I am not creative enough.  It won't be any good.

So now my intention is to write and hit publish, let go of my judgement of not being good enough, of being afraid.

They may be really messy, they may be awful and they will be mine.


  1. I'm so proud of you and can't wait to read your "messy yet perfect" posts again. So good to catch up the other night - would love to see you again soon (hopefully I will be having a less eventful night).

  2. I immediately went to Kelly's page. Hope you will publish soon as I always love your thoughts about Kelly. I watched the video that Marcy made this morning and of course shed lots of tears. We are going to Relay training tomorrow and Saturday in Billings so Willow and Kelly are in our thoughts even more. Also both girls loved the holidays and we go overboard in decorating to honor them.

    Take care and know that Kelly loved you.